Get real.

Its time to get real.

For self.
For family.
For relationship.

Gotta be more rajin, buang all thos procrastinating, and always be responsible. Stop using others for your own and remember Allah always.

Gotta stand up, and be a man. Avouding problems doesn't solve it. Gotta face the world, and show everyone that you are your own man now. Gotta lead. Gotta decide. Gotta strive. Gotta love. Gotta care. Gotta be more sensitive. Gotta think. Gotta....guide. Got to polish Iman...

Gotta go to her. And tell her that I Love Her. Very Much. And stop being a wuss, and accept whatever the outcome may be. Need to let her know i waited soooooo freaking long is because my own self not believing in my own capabilities, me own self feels really small without my paper qualifications, that me own heart considers me self a failure. but that NO MORE! Gotta show her that i am confident now, that i am ready, that i am not ashamed anymore with my condition, with ny appearence, with my physical, with my weak self... -,- Again, BE A MAN me fscking idiot me!

#ughh #LifesHard

P/s: seems somethings not right..did i upset her or anyone? Then agaib, overthinking kills.. >_<

//adam