Money Bitchin'

I need to stop bitchin' bout money. I won't stop worrying bout it, but i'll stop saying it.

HE has a HIS sunnah for all of us, and as servants, we are ought to keep pn striving and tawakkal to HIS qada', and hope our hardwork can affect our qadar.

Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin..

//adam

Helpless, as i have always been :|

You know that feeling? When you feel helpless? Thats me. Now. :(

"Mu ni dop panda berterus terang"

A quote of a good frined, to me, "Mu ni dok oanda berterus terang."

Apparently i am not good at that, at all. :(

//adam

Resources

I need to save up money for my marriage, and now MacBook is going tits up on me.. :(

Take care of your health, and take care of us.

I'm serious sayang.. I really don't like it when yr company is so damn stingy, yet you rather have 13 hours of your life in that office. Not funny at all. 

:/

32 + 79 does not equal 0

In math, a sum of two positive integers does not result to a negative figure. Let's keep it that way. But i'm curious as fuck tho.. :/

Get well soon

Get well soon my love.. I might not be the doctor, nor i have the medicine. But do know that my paryers to Allah is always with you.. 💕

//adam

Gomme-ne Ai-Chin..

:(

Longest Trip Ever!

Now this 16/5/15 Brunei trip will be the longest Brunei trip ever! Like ever ever! >___< It's gonna be the hardest it seems, when you know you have someone waiting and wanting u back home..

Thank you sayang.. You will always be here, *points to my heart* you don't have to worry bout that!

Yang ikhlas mencintaimu,

Adam

You don't have to do that forever.

No you don't. You don't need to do that alone.. I'm here, and will always be here. Remember? :| You can ajak me anytime..

Yours.

It

Congratz. Live well. Be you, always. Hope yours last forever, till jannah..

Ficken,

Baby Walks

That baby were struggling to crawl, and then it learns to stand, next it had it's tiny little steps.

It's gonna start walking very soon.. :) Then it'll sprint, and jump and fly and straight to Jannah insyaAllah.. Laying it's path, one column, one sheet at a time :p

Sayang awak! #WeAreSoDoingThis! <o/

//adam

Too Late

Too late.. Selera makan dah hilang.. Hmm

Anak Rusa Nani

🎶 Anak rusa nani~

Baru kembang ekor.

Ape dosa kami~

Lalu tak ditegur.. 🎶

:(

The Same Thing All Over Again?

Hey you!

Me?

Yeah, sadly yes, you..

What? 

You know ur doing that again right?

...

And it'll make you suffer again..

.. I know..

When are you gonna chagne this? The world dors not spin on your ideal own dillusional hopeless state you know..

Ok2, i know.. I just need a bit more time.. I know i gotta do it..

U'd better!

For this girl, i will! She changed me a bit you know..

Yeah, i can see it.. Just don't be that one thing you're not ok?

I'll make sure i won't.. Besides, i don't think she'll allow me too.. She's... Sharp..and different!

Ok, just don't let history repeats ok?

Thanks man! I will do my honest best to execute that plan! :)

/me

Miss

Can two people miss each ither even only after 3 hours?

Phone

I noticed she'll only pick her phone up only if i start to play with my phone. If not, her concentration is on me. Now thats...terbalik. Haha.. But i do appreciate that! Hehe :)

Thanks awak! <3

//adam

Kawal Diri Anda Wahai Manusia

I gotta learn to control myself. A little refraining oerhaps. Sigh~

Gunaik!

/alak

Serabut Perut by Cikgu Naim

An effort to directly take word by word on the lyrics of this dikir. Renungkan..

http://youtu.be/7gvKhd8xu1A

Serabut perut

Ingat kedudukey

Rumoh ambo burok

lambat bangat nok tumbe

Pisa cukur janggut

Nk beli raso tokdey

Pitih bo bo cukok

Wat beli budu garey

Serabut perut

Menoreh getoh oghe

Susu patak makuk

Nok ba'gi dengey tuey

Nok gi kijo klaut

Takut ombok duk glombey

Peliro anok beghok

Takutnyo cekoh tuey

Dey susoh toksoh nok oyak

Kito pitih takdop saim x masuk dekat

Tok cakak nok mitok

Bantuey wokil rakyak

Hutey kayu balok

Buleh k'saim hok rapak

Kalo kito xdok

Worih hok ado pakat

Toksoh holor tekok

Xdop (____) nok jilat

Tera nego

Sunggoh ti digadda

Ado gele kosor*

Kalu buleh wak moda

Tokdey pukul tigo

Oghe nok rombok paga

Aihh nyo mudoh

Demo nok kutip (____)

Kito nego

Demo maroh tok bui

Lebih pado kito

Wak kijo dengey cughi

Klu oghe kayo buat banguney tinggi

Demo kato takpo

Asa untung kito bagi

Payoh jugok

Main samo sdiri

Awal kito sesok

Pakat nok jetik dahi

Takat bulih jijok

Demo tok puah hati

Pakat nok repih tekok

Samo bangso sdiri

Klu tokey balok

Tokkey turun loghi

Demo sanggup gosok

Nok makey nasik free

Oghe kayo

Sedaklah caghi makey

Hok sesok hok bodo

Demo kutip wak umpe

Oghe ado kuaso

Saim tobak sakey

Puok2 buoyo

Pakat nok gosok blakey

Kalo tok cayo~

Hok mano ambo ghoyak

Demo buleh cubo

Balik tera buat

Kalu dale kijo

Tok payoh kijo kuat

Acak puji ktuo

Cepatlah naik pakat

Hok mano ambo crito

Tok ghoyak dengey tepat

Dunio kito

Banyok muslihat

Serabut perut

Ingat kedudukey

Rumoh kayu burok

lambat bangat nok tumbe

Pisa cukur janggut

Nk beli raso tokdey

Pitih bo bo cukok

Wat beli budu garey

Serabut perut

Menoreh getoh oghe

Susu patak makuk

Nok bagi dengey tuey

Nok gi kijo klaut

Takut ombok duk glombey

Peliro anok beghok

Takutnye cekoh tuey

/adam

Go die, Have fun.

We all have our dark side somewhere.

Well, even Anakin managed to come to his senses in the end.

//adam

Assalamualaikum

 Waalaikumsalam jawabye.. :)~

Kite insan ni mmg dh always have certain expectations kan? Even for something as salam (which is wajib dijawab btw) kite expect that 'waalaikumsalam' wish back towards us. If someone didnt reply, we may accept but deep inside we'll feel like sonething not quite right coz expectation kite x tercapai.. Hehe. Dah lah. Sekian.. :)~

/alak

Selamat Ulang Tahun Awak!

Selamat ulang tuhan kelahiran awak! Saye doakan semoga awak insyaAllah senantiase di bawah pandangan rahmah-Nya, dgn sy senantiase di samping awak! :)~

Gomme-ne i can't physically be there. I hope that vase and purple living things can subtitute me for this coming two weeks.. We'll finally (in God's will) meet and look each other in the eyes after these long two months!

As Barney always say it: "Wait for it~~~"

P/s: Now wud you share your wishlist sayang? :p

/adam

I'm about to surrender

Dem agony! Don't think i can tahan anymore.. >_< Baru less then 24 hours.. But it's really killing rupenye.. X tentu arah aku seko2 lam bilik ni.. Haha dem!

I raise my flag first then.. I'll ping her now.. >____<

Here goes.. Bismillah..

//adam

Backfired

"When two les get together, they're on fire.

When two gays get together, they back-fire!"

Geddit? Anyway, that does not relate at all to this entry.

My little action, saje nk tgk how she'll react, seems backfired straight to my forhead. Demmit. Harapkan ulam, pucuk pun x dapat. -__-" And it seems now her friend pulak sound aku.. Adeih..

Now, what do i hv to do? >__<~

P/s: didn't even get my subuh wake up call today :( And dear, i really do hope you understand that i won't as much as my heart want to, do that thing that you don't want me to. :((

-adam

Updated?

Last updated 7 years ago? Heh.. I hope that's me you're referring to! :)

You're welcome dear :))~

P/s: i have copy of your original profile description tu :p

/alak

Kite takde pape pun lagi kan

Not yet rupenye. Deswai human touch works when only face to face agaknye. Takpe, sabar.

#SengInguh

Gift

It is always a tough one. The topic of giving gift. Be it birthdays, celebration, graduation, farewell, anything. It's get harder, when it's yr loved one.

I wanted to be the one who give her that special one thing that she always wanted. Kan best.. To see someone's face unexpectedly receiving something so unexpected, that they literally blanked out for a few moment, and then just bubbly in their eyes - so happy that no words cud be used to express 'em feelings.

But Takdir dan Waktu tidak mengizinkan it seems. I'm too far away. Heck! I'm on the wrong side of the globe!

Wanted to make that iPhone to be from me, but xpelah, tuhan bg chance for me to get her something else la tu kot.

Am truly happy for you tho! :)~ Happy pre-brithday awak!

//alak

So what can i offer you?

Pre-(mono)log

This is really a comeback kind of thing. This blog started because of a someone. And it had stopped because of that someone. And now it is reopen because a new someone, #NAAR. It's a public blog, and it's just and expression of those monoloque i have in my mind. Nothing more.

MAIN

So Ai-chin, what can i offer you? Gomme-ne, i am caught when being ask directly as such. Always 'being told' not a good approach with me, but don't worry, it is a matter of the heart, and my heart as i always know it, will be biaised. And at the moment, biaised to you.

So what can i offer this time?

Here goes:

Offer #1 - Rights for Coke

I offer the return of your rights on Coke. I am happy that you agreed on letting me on and decide your Coke consumptiom. It might be weird to outsiders, but it's our thing now. I guess that's why you are feeling happy, but at the same time not happy with this offer - i think you are feeling as if you are losing our 'thing' To be frank, so am i. >_< Not quite happy with this offer myself.

But this offer stands. And effectively, forever (until a new bet/game/condition overule it again.. Hehe)

Offer #2 - Extreme Honesty

This is a double edge sword. To both you and myself Ai-chin.. 

Have you watched that series "Lie To Me"? There's one guy tu he practiced something called 'Extreme Honesty' where he just speaks out his toughts or his heart content - like really2 extremely honest ALL the time. E.g: he goes to the the mall, he sees a lady with nice body, he would just simply say - you have nice boobs and i would like to feel it - to a complete stranger. (Sorry, i am giving a picis example haha).

Anyhow, IRL i don't think it's practical to be having this with all 1.7 Trillion earth-lings, but i am not practicing it with them, i just want it to be with you. :)

It's a douvle edge sword to me, coz i might be pinned by it someday, and it is a double edge sword for you, if you accept this offer, someday, things i say might really hurt your feelings, which i realky dont want to. So considering that, i am putting an exclusion clause: 'In a conditional situation where Adam is concerned with Ai-chin's heart, Adam can opt to substitute an honest answer with a sincere smile, and just say i cannot answer. But this clause gives my Ai-chin (and only her) to still demands for the actual straight answer'

It can be viewed as 'hopeless' by some, but i am always convince honesty REALLY IS the best way to go forward. Extreme, but just with my Ai-chin :)

Offer #3 - Materialistic

I have to say, it is somehow much simpler to just buy physical things, and sprinkle a bit of love, and hand it to you. And for this offer, it's just simply that. I have a couple of things at the moment that i wanted to make it be from me - instead of you getting it yourself. But i'm pretty sure you won't accept it.. Haha.. :p

This offer gives you a mysterious gift. It'll last for a long time, if you choose to accept it. :)

Offer #4 - Extra offer!

I'll cook steak for you. (Senang je kan? Tgk YouTube chef Ramsay je kan :p). Hopefully. Hehe

So Ai-chin, those are my offers, it's not much - i don't quite have anything to offer to begin with. I have my ownself, my own body, my own heart - but that's not even worth anything for now. Gomme -__-" I wanted to have promises - but somehow, knowing me, i'll always find excuses nanti, so better don't commit to something i know i can't fulfilled.

That's for now. You choose, and i'll have that sensitive part of yours for the keeping! Muahahaha >:D

/alak <3