I'm about to surrender

Dem agony! Don't think i can tahan anymore.. >_< Baru less then 24 hours.. But it's really killing rupenye.. X tentu arah aku seko2 lam bilik ni.. Haha dem!

I raise my flag first then.. I'll ping her now.. >____<

Here goes.. Bismillah..

//adam

Backfired

"When two les get together, they're on fire.

When two gays get together, they back-fire!"

Geddit? Anyway, that does not relate at all to this entry.

My little action, saje nk tgk how she'll react, seems backfired straight to my forhead. Demmit. Harapkan ulam, pucuk pun x dapat. -__-" And it seems now her friend pulak sound aku.. Adeih..

Now, what do i hv to do? >__<~

P/s: didn't even get my subuh wake up call today :( And dear, i really do hope you understand that i won't as much as my heart want to, do that thing that you don't want me to. :((

-adam

Updated?

Last updated 7 years ago? Heh.. I hope that's me you're referring to! :)

You're welcome dear :))~

P/s: i have copy of your original profile description tu :p

/alak

Kite takde pape pun lagi kan

Not yet rupenye. Deswai human touch works when only face to face agaknye. Takpe, sabar.

#SengInguh

Gift

It is always a tough one. The topic of giving gift. Be it birthdays, celebration, graduation, farewell, anything. It's get harder, when it's yr loved one.

I wanted to be the one who give her that special one thing that she always wanted. Kan best.. To see someone's face unexpectedly receiving something so unexpected, that they literally blanked out for a few moment, and then just bubbly in their eyes - so happy that no words cud be used to express 'em feelings.

But Takdir dan Waktu tidak mengizinkan it seems. I'm too far away. Heck! I'm on the wrong side of the globe!

Wanted to make that iPhone to be from me, but xpelah, tuhan bg chance for me to get her something else la tu kot.

Am truly happy for you tho! :)~ Happy pre-brithday awak!

//alak

So what can i offer you?

Pre-(mono)log

This is really a comeback kind of thing. This blog started because of a someone. And it had stopped because of that someone. And now it is reopen because a new someone, #NAAR. It's a public blog, and it's just and expression of those monoloque i have in my mind. Nothing more.

MAIN

So Ai-chin, what can i offer you? Gomme-ne, i am caught when being ask directly as such. Always 'being told' not a good approach with me, but don't worry, it is a matter of the heart, and my heart as i always know it, will be biaised. And at the moment, biaised to you.

So what can i offer this time?

Here goes:

Offer #1 - Rights for Coke

I offer the return of your rights on Coke. I am happy that you agreed on letting me on and decide your Coke consumptiom. It might be weird to outsiders, but it's our thing now. I guess that's why you are feeling happy, but at the same time not happy with this offer - i think you are feeling as if you are losing our 'thing' To be frank, so am i. >_< Not quite happy with this offer myself.

But this offer stands. And effectively, forever (until a new bet/game/condition overule it again.. Hehe)

Offer #2 - Extreme Honesty

This is a double edge sword. To both you and myself Ai-chin.. 

Have you watched that series "Lie To Me"? There's one guy tu he practiced something called 'Extreme Honesty' where he just speaks out his toughts or his heart content - like really2 extremely honest ALL the time. E.g: he goes to the the mall, he sees a lady with nice body, he would just simply say - you have nice boobs and i would like to feel it - to a complete stranger. (Sorry, i am giving a picis example haha).

Anyhow, IRL i don't think it's practical to be having this with all 1.7 Trillion earth-lings, but i am not practicing it with them, i just want it to be with you. :)

It's a douvle edge sword to me, coz i might be pinned by it someday, and it is a double edge sword for you, if you accept this offer, someday, things i say might really hurt your feelings, which i realky dont want to. So considering that, i am putting an exclusion clause: 'In a conditional situation where Adam is concerned with Ai-chin's heart, Adam can opt to substitute an honest answer with a sincere smile, and just say i cannot answer. But this clause gives my Ai-chin (and only her) to still demands for the actual straight answer'

It can be viewed as 'hopeless' by some, but i am always convince honesty REALLY IS the best way to go forward. Extreme, but just with my Ai-chin :)

Offer #3 - Materialistic

I have to say, it is somehow much simpler to just buy physical things, and sprinkle a bit of love, and hand it to you. And for this offer, it's just simply that. I have a couple of things at the moment that i wanted to make it be from me - instead of you getting it yourself. But i'm pretty sure you won't accept it.. Haha.. :p

This offer gives you a mysterious gift. It'll last for a long time, if you choose to accept it. :)

Offer #4 - Extra offer!

I'll cook steak for you. (Senang je kan? Tgk YouTube chef Ramsay je kan :p). Hopefully. Hehe

So Ai-chin, those are my offers, it's not much - i don't quite have anything to offer to begin with. I have my ownself, my own body, my own heart - but that's not even worth anything for now. Gomme -__-" I wanted to have promises - but somehow, knowing me, i'll always find excuses nanti, so better don't commit to something i know i can't fulfilled.

That's for now. You choose, and i'll have that sensitive part of yours for the keeping! Muahahaha >:D

/alak <3