Ceremonial Judgement (Please.. :/)

:/ i dont even know how to start this entry.

:| just wanna say, please go. Please don't miss it. Its not a movie show that can be repeated later at 3.30 and tonight at 9.

:\ please don't be that person who then would just have to keep quite and smiling awkwardly while others get to show off their seal. always having excuses when being asked, avoiding topics with stupid meaningless conversation..just cause you didnt have it. :\

:( please, just proceed with what you must. i really believe in what i said you know, ade permulaan, adelah penghujungnye. ade pembukaan, perlulah ade penutupnye. this is that penutup. this is that thing that seals it.

:j please, you would not understand this feeling of unfinished business, this urges of unsettlement, this last slot of a nine hundred and ninety nine pieces. just that last bank column for a definite closure. blanketing all the years. yes, i realize its a bit unfortunate that yr family coulnd't join you, but we're here. other important persons in your life is hre too right? and that counts!

>_< please..

to hell with their new shoes.
to hell with their custom clothing.
to hell with their photog and what not.

things make sense only when you want it to. if not, fuck it. its you, yourself and.. well, irene?
And please dont say that "its just you". were here. I'm here. we are all here. and we seriously, in Allah's name, ARE happy for you. Its not just about you, its bout all of us. Why should you care? Cause thats the way it goes. You are not you if not for all of this. You're this because of you.

eh? g eh..? :)







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and yeah, i sometimes realize the principle of lending an ear (is this right?) but sorry, i'm just being me, i have to say it. bitter, yes, not proper, yes, but i'm being my selfish me as always, saying what i believe to be true, from my heart. lucky you. i would need one for myself too.. probably. :\

i' a guy and a Gemini. heh..

-adam