Whats with that $!

The problem? We hv something to lose.
I would like to think it this way, my way.
we are not those Ritchie Rich bastards.
we are not those O&G engineers.
we are not those economics forecasters.
we are not wall street traders. (not yet..0.o?)

we got something to lose, well, a lot.
yea.. yea.. i know.. you have dollars and cents yet you can't buy time, and love  bla bla and what shit.
 but having extra $ means a wayyyyyyyyyy lot more less options to ponder.

Haih.. i want money.

Thanks.

Money Oriented Me,
/alak

jelly

i iz jelly.
jelly iz gullible.
gullible like pudding.
pudding supposed sweet.
but sour pudding can be.
sour iz no pudding.
sour pudding iz still jelly.
i iz jelly.

/alak

Teh o ais limau laici

Why the title? Coz this is few matters, stack as one.

Matter 1
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Its been a while.. (again!?) yeah, it's been a while since my last heart rambling on blogspot. But i can't help it. sometimes when i want to blog, i dont have a connection or a proper pc.. damn! really considering those Digi 3G plans now.. but i personally prefer Maxis.

Matter 2
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Been to my old U. And..? i still can't accept it. Tried, but deep down, i know i'm still barely holding on. Appetite loss. Mood swings. Phail decisions. Sometimes your heart try to convince you that everything is only just in your mindset, but hey, you apparently can't lie to your own body. It shows, physically. You can hold it emotionally, you can hide it from your own reflection, but you can't simply deny it. It's there and it's affecting you. Well, with 'you', i mean me. It affects me. Part guilt. Part dumb. Part stupid. Part regret. Hell lot of pure 0wnage phun. But no..... nothing in the end.

Thank You for coming, please try again next year.

Matter 3
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I did a stupid thing. I have not been my self. I have disappoint me, and i think i have disappoint her as well. -____-" But damage has been done. Let it be for now. I'll see how i can improvise, as i always do. And suck at it once more.

Matter 4
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A general tot. Everyone do listen to lyrics. They just dont realize it. o_0

/alak

Chomey!

Chomey! Sungguh pom! X nawok ni, mmg chumey! Sungguh2.. Haha XD /alak

Problem

i have a problem.
and i really, seriously can't solve it.
anyone can hear me out?

T__T

/adam

:)

I... like this song.

i can know

i can know when theres something not right somewhere within me.
each and every time.
most of the time i choose to ignore and act as if everything is as per my normal typical daily life of me.
but it just shows.
i mean, its me,
i know i am not right somewhere in me,
how can i be not wrong at the same time?
its just not right.
it shows.
people will see if there is something not right with me.
it shows.
and i know when theres something not right within me.
each and every time.
i may choose to ignore it now.
but it shows.
if not now, it will show.
again, i may choose to ignore it.
but it shows.
it does.
just like right now. o.o

/alak