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Desperation

How do we know when we are truly desperate? A lot of times i came across me, and others, undergoing that moment of tense and willingness to just fuck everything and be gone with it. Yet, 2 minutes later, we just cool off and start giving excuses to our own selves, and justifying to our own ass on why we can still give it another chance.

We practically lose to our ourselves.

It’s a weighing between “i wanna get the fuck out of his situation” and “am i really will be able to bear that alternative?” - constant doubt of what we might not be able to do in order to survive.

It’s hard. But in desperation, i mean, REAL desperation, there won’t even be any time for this kind of blog post?

Hm.....

//alak

Money Bitchin'

I need to stop bitchin' bout money. I won't stop worrying bout it, but i'll stop saying it.

HE has a HIS sunnah for all of us, and as servants, we are ought to keep pn striving and tawakkal to HIS qada', and hope our hardwork can affect our qadar.

Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin..

//adam

Helpless, as i have always been :|

You know that feeling? When you feel helpless? Thats me. Now. :(

"Mu ni dop panda berterus terang"

A quote of a good frined, to me, "Mu ni dok oanda berterus terang."

Apparently i am not good at that, at all. :(

//adam

Resources

I need to save up money for my marriage, and now MacBook is going tits up on me.. :(

Take care of your health, and take care of us.

I'm serious sayang.. I really don't like it when yr company is so damn stingy, yet you rather have 13 hours of your life in that office. Not funny at all. 

:/

32 + 79 does not equal 0

In math, a sum of two positive integers does not result to a negative figure. Let's keep it that way. But i'm curious as fuck tho.. :/

Get well soon

Get well soon my love.. I might not be the doctor, nor i have the medicine. But do know that my paryers to Allah is always with you.. 💕

//adam

Gomme-ne Ai-Chin..

:(

Longest Trip Ever!

Now this 16/5/15 Brunei trip will be the longest Brunei trip ever! Like ever ever! >___< It's gonna be the hardest it seems, when you know you have someone waiting and wanting u back home..

Thank you sayang.. You will always be here, *points to my heart* you don't have to worry bout that!

Yang ikhlas mencintaimu,

Adam

You don't have to do that forever.

No you don't. You don't need to do that alone.. I'm here, and will always be here. Remember? :| You can ajak me anytime..

Yours.

It

Congratz. Live well. Be you, always. Hope yours last forever, till jannah..

Ficken,

Baby Walks

That baby were struggling to crawl, and then it learns to stand, next it had it's tiny little steps.

It's gonna start walking very soon.. :) Then it'll sprint, and jump and fly and straight to Jannah insyaAllah.. Laying it's path, one column, one sheet at a time :p

Sayang awak! #WeAreSoDoingThis! <o/

//adam

Too Late

Too late.. Selera makan dah hilang.. Hmm

Anak Rusa Nani

🎶 Anak rusa nani~

Baru kembang ekor.

Ape dosa kami~

Lalu tak ditegur.. 🎶

:(

The Same Thing All Over Again?

Hey you!

Me?

Yeah, sadly yes, you..

What? 

You know ur doing that again right?

...

And it'll make you suffer again..

.. I know..

When are you gonna chagne this? The world dors not spin on your ideal own dillusional hopeless state you know..

Ok2, i know.. I just need a bit more time.. I know i gotta do it..

U'd better!

For this girl, i will! She changed me a bit you know..

Yeah, i can see it.. Just don't be that one thing you're not ok?

I'll make sure i won't.. Besides, i don't think she'll allow me too.. She's... Sharp..and different!

Ok, just don't let history repeats ok?

Thanks man! I will do my honest best to execute that plan! :)

/me

Miss

Can two people miss each ither even only after 3 hours?

Phone

I noticed she'll only pick her phone up only if i start to play with my phone. If not, her concentration is on me. Now thats...terbalik. Haha.. But i do appreciate that! Hehe :)

Thanks awak! <3

//adam

Kawal Diri Anda Wahai Manusia

I gotta learn to control myself. A little refraining oerhaps. Sigh~

Gunaik!

/alak