Saturday, December 25, 2010

Rain

On the night we arranged to meet
The realization dawned on me
Questioning my reflection in the mirror

With a white coat on
And a glum expression
Am I really anticipating this?
Hurrying along the highway without being able to get a taxi

Not having an umbrella is a common thing
Walking along soaking wet on Christmas eve
Surely the blame cannot be put on someone else?

A story which I created by myself
Even a teeny bit of happiness would have been fine for me
You won't be coming...
That I know
Silent night

I dislike people who check the time repeatedly
For doing that only tries to bring back memories which are already lost

No matter what I do
I can't get rid of the past
Don't keep sighing

I'm not special
Because no matter how many times I try again
I get lost at the same place

Quit lying that there are no lies
That incident in which the truth was not known
I've gotten used to being hurt
Even if it's a contradiction I accepted it all
I just didn't have the courage to destroy everything
You won't be coming...
A lonesome silent night

I dreamt of that promising future displayed in the show window
Just like back then
Adoring the vague reflection of the candles
So this is goodbye?

When someday this rain turns into snow
And slowly consumes this sadness
I'll be greeted by new hope

I have always enjoyed the holy night
Adults tend to be a little lonely
So it's okay to cry
A new beginning, silent night

Ripped off : http://sukisukisukasuka.blogspot.com/2010/11/rain-yui-lyric-and-translation.html

//alak -,-

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Mimpi

Betulkah mimpi itu permainan syaitan?
Bukan suatu petunjuk?

Semalam aku mimpi dia.
Aku harap mimpi itu betul.
Hmm.. Nampak macam permainan syaitan.
Atau kesan otak yang tidak cukup rehat.
Atau keinginan hati yang amat, menyebabkan igauan maya.
Atau satu ilusi kepada jiwa aku sendiri, pura-pura percaya walau kenyataan meluahkan yang berbeda.
Atau.... Itu sememangnya dia.
Dia dalam mimpi aku?
Aku.. Adakah aku dalam mimpi dia?
Hah!
o__o
Itu dia.
Sekali lagi.
Optimis kata orang.
Bermimpi di siang hari.

Biarlah.
Sekurang-kurangnya mimpi itu buat aku tersenyum tatkala jaga.
=)~


//alak

Sunday, December 5, 2010

I'm Here

Hey..
Are you okay?
Everything's cool?
Erm..
You know I'm here right?
I'm always here.
For you at least..
I'll always be here..
For the very least, for you..

So,
If you ever need.......... me, or... anything,
Well, I'm here..
As i have always been..
Here.
Waiting.
Willingly.
For you.

>.<


//alak

Friday, November 26, 2010

Nanti

Nanti, kunjung tak tiba,
Mahu, malu dipinta,
Pergi, rasa tak kena,
Tunggu, gelisah jiwa.

>.< the time will come, hopefully..

//alak

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Aku Mahu

Aku mahu...

SONY nex - http://www.sonystyle.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/CategoryDisplay?storeId=10151&catalogId=10551&langId=-1&categoryId=8198552921644718498

BlackBerry Torch - http://us.blackberry.com/smartphones/blackberrytorch/

SONY Rolly - http://www.sony.co.uk/hub/rolly-dancing-mp3-player

Ok thanks. Tunggu pitih luh.

//alak

[Update]

Torch RED color. >.<

[Update lg]

Dem yu hyou. ughhhh

Alienware m11x - http://www1.ap.dell.com/my/en/home/notebooks/alienware-m11x/pd.aspx?refid=alienware-m11x&s=dhs&cs=mydhs1&ST=alienware%20m11x&dgc=ST&cid=33211&lid=783233&acd=1059562075234140

And it comes with a custom fscking nameplate!!!!



Haishhhhhhhhhhh -_____-"


//alak

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Yaken. =)

Hi,

it's been a while.

Life, always beautiful as it has always be. Sunnatullah doing, proving to us, Allah's servant, that our roads are always there, laid upon us, protected between our hijab's viewing, in His will.

When you ponder upon those things which happened to you, don't just look to that event. Look further. not in, not front but a bit backwards. See what you should have seen way before those things happened. Look, and understand and appreciate and be amaze and thankful to those written destiny, chained, very beautifully, only in a way which is possible by Him, and only Him Himself. :)

Things happen for a reason, they say, yup, they do, they really do. Things don't just happen, theres a story, a sequence of storyline to it, a destined plot, a sequel for each action, masyaAllah, with this alone, is the proof of his Almightiness. >.<

Hey, look nor further than yourself, your own body. You take in oxygen, passed rough your nose, filtered as it should be, down trough your trachea (is this correct?), downwards more, grab by your lungs, filtered again, separated elements, returned hydrogen, nitrogen, monoxide, bla bla bla, oxygen went trough, passed to your heart, absorbed by your blood, exported throughout your body, divided (segregated?) at each body parts, then it circulates, refreshing our tissues, so everything else can work. And in all that, it happen so damn fast with the most efficient manner, calibrated tick by tick. but hey, me no doctor. :)~

So, how does that relates? well, think of any event that happened to you. name one. ok. keep it. how did that happen. that one incident must have had some factor to it. How it happened, why it happened, who involved, "what if" considerations, masyaAllah, its all so perfect! XD I bet you that particular incident wouldn't have happened that way if that does not happened the other day, and that thing cancelled at last minute, and luckily i have got this with me and you were talking regarding this and triggered me, and if only we had this, that would have not allowed us to have this at this time, and resulted with me having that incident today.

Understand what i'm trying to convey here? =)~ Good. Can't you see, starting from that day that thing was cancelled and you were not there, and i have this with me, and we didn't make it to there, that is all part of the plan. We are in one big beautifully written play by Him! :)~

There's a reason behind anything that happened. Theres always one. So hey, if that didn't happened the way you want it, ya, you can be disappointed, yup, thats us, humans, the losers, but give up not just yet, it must be part of something larger, yup, just wait, and yaken, yup, that's the keyword. YAKEN. Ponder on all those which have happened to you these past few days, and i bet you will be smiling to your self, and sujud syukur straight away. :)

Ya. that's all. Just feel like writing. Thanks for tuning.

//alak

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Whats up? :) >.< :( :\ :)

Hi,

Its been a while since my last post. Sep 16.

Its 27 Oct, and seriously a lot has happened, and seriously its hard even for me to handle, for me to digest, for me to cope, for me to lead, for me to decide, for me to assess, for me to sigh... ~___~

That Wednesday my mama called, "aboh saket2 dada, smlm mama ngurut semlman.. pagi ni ok sket.. tak tahu a.. mebi kene gi spital gok ne.." me, as usual, silence, like to keep it simple, kalau sakit, nk tahan ke xx? kalau xmxoh, gi cari ubat, spital or kelinik. Its not that simpel after all..

Friday, aboh agree nk gi IJN, aboh kate nk gi lepas mama abeh masok2.. so tinggal ke kak siti tolong jage kedae.. menurut cerite, aboh drive sdiri, aboh gi kedae gunting rambut luh, kemas2, and even sebelum kuor, die mintok mama potong kuku.. >.<

Sampai IJN, jumpe doktor, mama kol, mama kate aboh maybe admitted, lame sket, mama kol lagi, yup, doktor immediately admit aboh ke ward. mama kol lg, mama kate mari a spital, aku kate hmm.. tgk a nt lepas kije apih gi stert IJN a.. i was from my office that evening, amek teksi, stret gi IJN.

mama kol, mama kate kompem aboh kene urgent undergo surgery, kene replace tiub, daroh beku clogging.. 2nd injap may be prob gk... and operation maybe ari sabtu pagi..

aku? ape aku buat? derhake-ly aku gi Castle baru.. cilake-ly aku gi tgk wayang.. ughhhhhhh >.<

pagi2.. kul.. 8 pagi gituh.. sabtu.. nabila and ima mari ambik kat umah sewa.. beli sik mak, bungkus sik dagang ke mama.. gi IJN.. makan kat kafe IJN, belom jumpe aboh.. sbb.. x xleh masuk lg.. and jumaat ptg tuh dah jumpe sekali..

mama kate mebi dok nk pospon sket, bukan pagi.. tp doktor kate nk operate arituh gk.. then mamanaek.. jumpe doktor.. doktor kate mebi lam kul 3/4 so lam kul 2 kene prepare dh..

aku naek gi atas.. bilik menunggu kat CCU.. tetibe tgk2 sume ddah ade.. mak sedare.. bapak sedare.. ibu spupu.. bapak spupu.. spupu2... kawan2.. semua. alhamdulillah.. tgk, masuk IJN boleh jd alasan utk satukan family kan? :)

kul 1.. cik doh kate cik doh nk gerak dah die ade open house.. atierah punye open house rasenye kalau xx silap.. then die nk grk, acu nk grk, mama lop kate tetibe, doktor nk wt operation skrg gk! urgently, and tgah prep dh.. >.<

so.. kami sume amek telefon aboh, telefon mama, telefon ssdirik, kol semua org yg ade lam phone book, kol kol kol kol kol kol kol. ramae dtg.. alhamdulillah semua sempat smpae sebelum aboh masuk bilik operation.. aboh.. relax je.. die.... cam tahu2 je.. x nanges x sedeyh, senyum cria, wt lawok cam bese a.. T____T

ok.. skip sket.. nurse and mama tolok kuor dr CCU, aboh dh pakae baju operate ijau tuh, ade la masuk2 air kat lengan sume.. sebelum tuh, dr mlm sabtu ari jumaat tuh dh aboh bising2.. maroh ke doktor, well bukan maroh a.. meecok sket.. pasal ape?/ sbb dok x wi makan.. haha aboh.. gitu okmo.. suke makan T______________T

ok..rupenye itu adalah last moment utk aku tatap aboh senyum, utk tatap aboh ceria, utk tatap aboh wt lako.. utk tatap aboh gura2 ngan khalish.. dr pintu CCU.. kona kiri.. depan bilik menunggu.. stert... lepas pintu kuar CCU/ICU.. stert.. lepas lif.. stert.. lepas vending machine.. stert.. lepas PICU.. eh sini ke last tmpat leh folow? doktor cam ade sebut pasal limit is at redline.. ouh alamka.. aboh, maap., x dang salam.. laju ngat nurse tolok.. eh.. babai aboh assalamualaikum.. eh.. ouh silap2.. bukn situh.. still boleh polo ag.. "ahahahhah.." bising kejap kat situh.. geme2.. "syhhhhhh" sume sound same sdiri.. ok sume tenag mula.. polo lg.. stert.............. smpae la lam bilik yg ade 'redline'.. ok.. sebbek dr depan CCU akud ah pesan kat hazim tlg amek video gune BB die.. that was the ponly and last alive video of aboh. i will cherish that forever. thanx zim.

aku sebak. aku tahan. lek a.. mane leh sedeyh.. org nk gi operation room ko9t.. sush a kalau nk nages2 sedeyh.. gile down org nk gi operate.. haih2.. teguh2.. "cis.. ko ckp senag a.. cube ko jd aku" "T_____T"

dotor dg, doktor tanye "ecik.. encik name sape?" "nik othman" "ni sape yg sign ni?" "sy sdiri" "ni betul ye signature encik?" "aa..yup betul" ayoh dialog dgn doktor.. nurse redi je.. doktor redi je..

Last Farewell.

semua salam. cium tggn. cium pipi. semua mintak halal. adek bradek aboh. biras2 aboh. mama. apih. wina. ima. nabila. husna. khalish. semua. daddy long ye pegang pale aboh.. bkpe aku tatau.. T________________________________________T

aku start blur2 dh oenglihatan.. syet! demmit airmate. diam2 suda a. ima mari hulur tisu. syet! dah mengalir ke. aku tunduk. ok doktor kate "ok..." die start tarek katel. nurse mari nk tolok katel. aboh T_______T

anoh amsuk lam pintu tuh. ade cermin. napok katel kene tolok. aboh angakat tgn kalau x silap. aku? aku stert tunduk je, lari kluor, telanggor a few mok sedare kalau x silap. maap. stert..... jalan laju.. steret...... gi ke bilik air depan bilik mennuggu td.. x thn. masuk2 ade cleaner.. tgh clear kan tong smpah. maap abg/kakak kliner, sy nk tumpang basuh muke. lime minit kot.. tahan2.. esak2.. basuh muke.. tarek napas panjang.. kuar2.. edi ade.. haziq ade.. hazim msg dh "aku balek lu pih.." kuor jumpe cik ani.. aku kate "lapo.. jom makan" jenguk mama jap "ma.. apih gi kafe jap.. lapo lop"

......................... 11.30 mlm..kene gi ICU kat building baru. mama dipanggeyl masusk lam kul 12 gituh kot. -xmoh cite dh-

Nik Othman Bin Nik Abdul Kadir disahkan tiada 27/9/2010 11.45 malam. selamat dikebumikan 28/9/2010 di perkuburan di losong.. sebelum zohor dah siap.. alhamdulillah.. aboh maap, insyaAllah sy cube jd anok soleh yg doa nye smpae sbagai tinggaln sseorg yg kembali ke rahmatullah..

ok. dah.

ape lagi? ouh! aku quit IP ServerOne and joined SCAN Associates :D Pilihan bijak? ilihan menarek? pilihan betul? pilihan puas? x tahu lg.. tp so far, so good :) Maap mr Lee, i really really really appreciate the oppurtunity you've given me in IPS1, for someone with no qualification, you accepted me, and i seriously cherish and appreciate that soooo much! Somehow Allah will give me the chance to repay that.

SCAN? baru hari ke-8 ni.. lek luh.. we'll see how.. :)

ape lagi? x tahu la.. ade la fw minor2 things.. ouh ye, congratz Teng =D Hai nadiah o/~ =D J0m? =p

tuh je dulu kot.. tetibe saket dada dh meniarap ccam ni.. kene goso baju nk gi keje satlg.. lunch2.. -away-

p/s: dem.. baur pasan.. laju je atiezul nk polo.. haha

//alak

Thursday, September 16, 2010

17Sept2010

Kara Mister
Suju No other
ft island - love love love
big bang last farewell
taeyang wedding dress
taeyang where you at
taeyang i need a girl

by tUtiU.

alak.

itik

itik.
periahl itik.. p ramlee ajor doh kan? itik.. di depan di blakang.. hok mane satu yg mane satu hok tu? x tahu la..
ye kalau itik ne.. bukan seko.. banyk itik lam dunie ni.. tp doh itik tuh ikot bakang itik tu, mmg itik tuh doh a itik tuh ikot.. itik hok depan tuh plop duk ikot itiik hok depan num seko lg.. doh hok itik bakang ne? duk ikot wt mnde? bukan nye itik depan tuh nk uturn mula ke itik tu..
haih itik2.. buleh plop ke p ramlee duk wt teke itik.. betul dh tuh. tersirat disebalek yg tersurat.. atas itik depan itik blkg tuh a kot nk paling tgk prassan ke dop.. dok doh ase.. tp gituh a.. x ahu a tuh..
itik still duk polo itik.. itik still duk polo itik gok.. p itik.. x au a.. sedo dop ade org polo ye oh?
x a kot..

haih2... itik2.. oldebest eh itik2 sekalian.. :D

alak.

baru

yup.. created a new blog. blog asal.. well.. x seswai utk masukkan isu2 persendirian.

alak